Today, I would say my health is on the upward but equally important, my mind is a lot stronger than before, and much, much, healthier.
Friends is another big change. The last year we have got to know who our real friends are and those that really weren’t. I was initially saddened by how some close to me vanished from my life when I was diagnosed, but over time you realize that they weren’t real friends so there is nothing lost. I am also happy to rid my life of toxic people.
At first I felt so upset that all of my healthy living wasn’t enough to keep me disease free. I imagined all of the donuts I have missed out on, or the binge drinking that could have happened. But then I realized my healthy lifestyle had left me strong enough to endure the treatments. I didn’t stray from my kale salads and my tee total lifestyle, and I am actually happy about that.
The biggest change is living with gratitude. Life is a lot, lot better when you enjoy and appreciate the good things. As I carry on my day and get glimpses of the ocean, I feel so lucky to live where we live. That is a big deal. My first year here, I hated it and we tried to leave. I appreciate our friends a lot and enjoy spending time with them. While I have lost some toxic friends, I have been lucky to meet many amazing women who have been through breast cancer and “get it”.
I have read a LOT of books on cancer, and treating it traditionally, naturally, and emotionally, and strangely, a lot say the same thing! I don’t mean that sarcastically. I don’t expect traditional medicine to talk about mental health and positivity, but when it comes to cancer, they do. Thankfully allopathic medicine is catching up!
I think I carry a few things with me emotionally. My mother will forever be a mean, nasty, narcissist who I will continue to keep out of my life but will learn to forgive for me. I think I also had some triggers. The triggers are the easy part, but clearing the rest takes some work! What I do know is this. While it would (or will?) be hard to give up much of what I have been doing to make some changes, I know I love my husband and daughter more than anything, and they are my core support team. Let us not forget the dog either.
Who doesn’t love unconditional love! While my work exhausts me at times, boundaries are making it easier, and I am pretty proud of how my business has grown and how much I enjoy the clients I now work with. Plus, having been able to keep it going over the last 4 months is nothing short of a miracle and a lot of appreciation to my patient clients! I have also realized that turning down projects is okay.
I no longer save everything for a rainy day. Now we plan to take more trips (and actually book them!) and enjoy living now. Living in the present is so much better. Best of all is knowing how strong and loving my family have been throughout that year. While I went through the nasty part of it, we all lived through this year together.
I wasn’t sure which part of my cancer journey I wanted to celebrate, but it seems fitting to celebrate all of it. Over two years on, I am healthy and feeling strong. That is worth celebrating, even if it is celebrating the day I was diagnosed. I plan to celebrate the day I finished treatment and anything else that seems appropriate along the way! Tonight we celebrated by going out for dinner. It was a much better day than 2 years ago! https://kickingpink.wordpress.com/
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